Love unloved
Can't bear to think of you leaving
Can't bear to see you not here
My heart's breaking
My soul's shaking
I'm gonna miss you

With all my soul
all my breath and all my tears
I pray we meet again
breathe again, love again
My heart's aching
I'm gonna miss you

In Memoriam
Chiagbanwe Ukaoma 1985 - 2009

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Happy New Year *wink, wink*

Monday, January 26, 2009

Well, at least I said Happy New Year in January. Things are going ok. This year I decided would be my year of entrepreneurship so I had decided to trade on Ebay, craigslist and any other possible place. It can be fun for real.
I always feel as if I have nothing to say any time I get on here, thats funny because so many things happen all in a day. Well just wishing everybody the best of 2009

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Christmas Love

Monday, December 15, 2008

I think Christmas is always fun times you know, you visit people, chill with friends and buy gifts ... sometimes. I really don't get into all the gift buying and my excuse is that we didn't really do that in Nigeria, haha But anyway, much love people. Life... not easy. Love .... sometimes overrated. Too many things going on people.

You know sometimes when you take a moment to reflect on your life (and here I go being all mushy and sentimental again) you can't help but thank God. At least thats how it feels to me. Don't get me wrong, if I start listing things that not ok in my life, we will be here forever but it always feels like invariably, God has shown me mercy and for that I cannot stop thanking Him. Like the song goes "After all these starts and stops, we keep coming back" it seems that is the relationship we have with God, we move away so quickly, get caught up in so many other things but God can call you to attention with a quickness! All those things we take for granted about our lives like our family, jobs, health and other things.

Lord I thank you. For all those other times I haven't thanked you, I thank you today. I pray you will always lead in my life. Amen and amen.

Have you thanked Him today?

lala

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The Way I Am

Monday, December 01, 2008

So believe it or not, growing up, I couldn't wait to be an adult because I sincerely believed that being older automatically came with maturity and more sense. Yeah right! Now I'm older, I realize that age has little or nothing to do with maturity.

Now I know that maturity comes with learning to toss the divalicious behaviors, holding your tongue with you are almost bursting with some well deserved insults and abuses for somebody, taking a deep breath before you toss that plate at somebody's head or a heavy handed slap.

Now I know that maturity is learning, both from your own experiences as well as other people's experiences. Holding your head up high in the middle of negativity and carrying yourself with some dignity and class. So not easy but so worth it in the end.

I talk about this because I remember cussing out one of my "friends" so badly that she never spoke to me anymore. I don't regret it because she deserved it and she admitted it herself. But I wonder if I should have handled the situation differently.

One of my biggest problems in friendshipland is that I have a tendency to be too brutally honest in my opinions. Not always the best way but I really detest all these so called friendships that people laugh in each others face and stab each other behind their backs. It really scares me.

Don't give me your friendship if all I am is fodder for your gossip with other people. Because unfortunately I have a tendency to tell all my business which I am learning is NOT the best way to operate cos the truth is, you really can never tell who your friend is until something happens.

And that is the truth.
Love, lala

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In For A Penny ...

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

A little achy from working out, I just realized how moody I'm feeling. I have been moody lately and that always happens to me when I miss appointments and stuff. Generally, when I don't live up to expectations. I was supposed to go to the orthodontist on Monday and I couldn't get out of bed. That left me so depressed and then I started thinking of so many other things floating around in my mind.

Things like the fact that I have done nothing towards my wedding besides tearing out dresses and other stuff I like out of magazines. Firstly, I don't even know if I want a big wedding. I really want to be able to share that day with my loved ones and honey's loved one but I don't know how to achieve that without a traditionally whitey type wedding.
I need to lose some (scratch that, a lot) of weight in order to look good and right now, I am moving at a snail's place and I don't think that would cut it, at all.

The weather also tends to leave me a little bluesy, don't know why. I know, I know all those explanations about why it happens. True it does happen. So, so far, here I am worrying about everything under the sun and moon and I don't know where to start.

I got it, I need a lifecoach. Someone that can point out all my mistakes and tell me how to do better. Ok, one more thing to do. Anyway, I need suggestions. Please help

lala

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Believing The Hype

Friday, November 21, 2008

I won't lie, I have got caught up in the hype of people sometimes. Really, really believing what they say, you know ... expecting a great deal out of them and phew! nothing, nada... just "B.S"ing at its best.
One of the worst ones that really made me sit up was a wedding I went to last year. I was wrong on my own part sah because I hate to admit it but I wasn't invited. Haa, sigh of relief... finally said it. I know, I know but at my core, I don't still believe in these attendance by invitations only weddings. I mean ... I know nobody had unlimited funds but its seems pretty mean to me. I will be too glad that people took time out of their busy schedule to come to my wedding so ain't no way, I am turning them away.

Anyway, back to my shameful experience. The was a lot of hype, hype, hype about the wedding. Don't want to give too many details away but bloggers were going to be there, fashionistas etc and "professional people" So knowing the bride, sent out an email and prepared to go to the wedding.

Man, talk about embarrassing.. I went up to the bride and said congrats, she just answered very coolly. At the receptions, name dropping after name dropping yet the food was so tiny, the music was so dry. The clothes were so unimpressive. Mind you, I'm not even big on a lot of stuff but it was the noise and hype about this wedding that made me have an expectations. And were those expectations crushed. People were so fixated on titles but it was so boring. I haven't been to a wedding so boring in ages.

The decorations were parse, the wedding cake was like a Sam's club cake. It was weird, all I could think was ... whats going on?.

My beau and I quickly hightailed it as soon as we could and went to a ... McDonalds cos were we so starving.

So the moral of the story is .. "mo gbo, mo ya (or whatever that is) days are over. If you don't have an IV in hand, sit you ass at home!!!!!!

First time I have shared this story, for a long time I was so embarrassed to talk about it.

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Name: lala
Home: Memphis, Tennessee, United States
About Me: I'm an introvert. I love challenges and the "path less taken". I have discovered that life more of a journey than a destination so I try to enjoy each day. And if you've never failed at anything then you haven't tried anything outside your comfort zone. Right now, I have a love/hate relationship with Memphis. I love the city because the people are very friendly but careerwise, this place will be a dead end for me.
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